Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is continuing to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to my Thursday morning Spirituality group and I got a lot out of that.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed over to an appointment that I had with a case worker over at a local office.
The meeting with the case worker went great and after that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my home suit and finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and while doing that,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues to move forward,despite a rocky road,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods change at times from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I never how my moods or emotions will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw it on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel a tad better.Both God and his son Jesus Christ help sustain me and after that,I can move on with the rest of the day.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a few minutes and after the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still get tempted throughout the day as I go along with it.But instead of giving in or simply thinking of these impure and unclean things,I now throw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through every temptation that comes around.I throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I ask for strength to fight and resist the temptation and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It is great to rely on God more than on my own strength.I am also still asking for prayers by those who follow and read my blog regularly and I am also asking for encouraging words as well.Both are always appreciated.Thanks in advance to everyone for prayers offered and for the encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ