Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After the shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after doing some work around the house,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a small thing on my agenda for today.
The only thing that I had on my agenda today was that I had to take my car in to get inspected at a garage that my locally living sister referred me to.My youngest nephew and I headed over there and when we arrived there,it took almost ten minutes to let me know that all I needed was a passenger side ball joint to pass inspection.After the appointment to do the work was made,which will be tomorrow morning,I dropped my nephew off at home and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in.
While my recovery continues onward,despite a rocky road,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods or emotions can be up and good one day or one minute and then the next day or minute,down and not so good.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable to handle.I simply throw my struggles on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help is sustaining me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggles and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation when I manipulated my genitals until I ejaculated in the wee early morning hours.I felt really terrible as a result of this failure and I really begged for God to show his mercy on me for this third consecutive fall.I really asked for God to forgive me for this fall in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I was actually in tears as I prayed so hard for God to forgive me falling this third consecutive time.I am really going through an awful lot of emotional issues right now and it isn't pretty.I really need to start buckling myself down and really fight to resist these sorts of temptations.Each and every time that I fail,I always feel miserable and since this was the third consecutive fall,it really felt like a crushing weight on me.Again,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for this fall and I begged for God's mercy for sinning again.I felt better,but I really need to start really fighting these urges now as I am going through this terrible emotional time right now.I am also still seeking prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts and I will continue to keep praying myself.Thanks in advance for your prayers as they are appreciated.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also,an extra special Thanks to God for his forgiveness of my sins.
Tomorrow,I have that appointment to get my passenger side ball joint on and then have it pass inspection.I am just going to relax and take it easy for the rest of the day as I will have nothing else to do.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ