Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to meet with my job placement counselor and complete an online employment assessment,where everything went well and I passed the assessment.After it was all over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local pizzeria for a few slices of pizza for lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of the dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to listen to a little bit of music and after did,did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the early morning hours,I gave into masturbation when I was awakened by an erection.I felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked to be forgiven in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was sorry.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and after I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared when they do.I still need to work on getting tough with myself by going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show them that I am really serious about wanting to heal from these terrible unnatural sexual desires and that I want to overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a difficult emotional time.I need your prayers very much.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section as much as I need your prayers.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having to do some much needed grocery shopping,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ