Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly and I also managed to get quite a bit done despite the short period of time that I had.After finishing,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center.
On the way home,I bought a movie at a local Big Lots called Castle Keep,which is a war movie.This also is a movie that Ronald J.Defeo Jr. watched before he murdered his family in the infamous Amityville Horror house.It is not clear whether this movie inspired and/or influenced him but the film itself seems interesting.I also cashed my paycheck at a nearby bank.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got there,I decided to lay down and read while listening to a little bit of slow music.I just wanted something to keep me occupied until dinner.I also waited for my computer to warm up so I could register all of my currency at the Where's George site.
After eating,I registered all my bills at the Where's George site and I also did some last minute personal PC work.I also managed to have a talk with a friend for only a couple of minutes.He let me go because he was entertaining a relative that had just come into town.I said that it was good and we hung up.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.I have been waiting on this for the whole week.Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowd and I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that tomorrow night goes well for me.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't really decided what I am going to do but whatever it is,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
Last night,before going to bed,I gave into temptation and I masturbated.Once again,I was manipulating my sexuality and when I was near erect,I felt myself on the verge of a climax and I ejaculated.I felt really lousy after that and believe me,I had to ask the creator real hard to forgive me for what I did.Though I felt better,I still felt pretty guilty over this and why.I am hoping that this doesn't happen again.If anyone has any advice on how I can combat this habit,please share.Thanks.I don't want to be enslaved to my own sexuality.I want it to be my slave rather than I be it's slave.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ