Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had some stuff planned for the day.I first went over to the local Target to get a gift card for a friend of the family and a bottle of dish detergent.After doing that,I headed over to a Blockbuster in the next town within the county that I live.I went there to exchange a DVD that I had bought accidently as I already had the one that I bought in my DVD library.After the exchange,I headed over to the nearby library to register all the bills that I had in change and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medications as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no desire to act out in any way,shape or form.I had no urges to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation.While that was good,I know that the temptation to act out will come back when least expected.I have to be on guard when that happens and also,be watchful.Anything can happen between now and tomorrow and also,the near and distant future.While I had no urges today,the urges could also come back when least expected.The struggle that a man like me has to go through are always difficult and at times,can seem unbearable.But I have to stay strong.I have to keep saying to myself "I own my desires.My desires don't own me." I also have to keep telling myself that "I can change.I can renew myself.What I am struggling With is not an inborn thing,but an emotional thing.I can beat this and I can be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be."I have to keep telling myself those things day in and day out.I am greatful for all of what I had received from those who keep reading and following this blog of mine.I am hoping to use them the best way that I know how and I am looking forward to newer opportunities to improve myself.Thanks to all for the help given.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ