Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.Today,we had a visiting pastor from Indiana join us for worship and that was great.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed out to do some much needed errand running.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple cans of peas and a bottle of liquid soap.After paying for these things,I headed for a nearby Big Lots to pick up a bottle of salad dressing.After that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas and after that,I went to see a friend to share my good news,but he wasn't home.After I left there,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into my DVD player and watch it while relaxing.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind in the early afternoon,causing me to fantasize and lust after the images.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems as I worked to stay busy and to keep my mind off of anything sexual.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and very often.Please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need it as much as I need prayers.They both help in many ways,such as they keep me going and show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in paperwork that my job placement counselor/coach and I have to fill out to my new employer,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ