Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and I headed out to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and I headed straight home.When I got home,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I put my clothes back on and I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I headed out again to pick up some more cold and cough medicine.I first turned in some cans and bottles at a local supermarket and when I was finished,I first headed to the local Super Wal-Mart,but couldn't find anything that I could use.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store and I picked up four bottles of mucus relief DM pills.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby supermarket and pick up a bottle of cough syrup.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cold remedy's that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.While it was cooking,I quickly did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work afterwards.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am still battling a terrible cold and I still have a cough that won't leave.However,I have chosen to share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA today.Today,with the stress of the job search and trying to get rid of this darned cold,I wound up giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind by manipulating my genitals to these images and when I reached orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable after this and when I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed to him and revealed everything that I did to him and I left nothing out.I prayed real hard pleading for his forgiveness and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.When I finished praying,I felt much better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal support right now.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue your prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ