Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to get a couple of things that I needed.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and since I was still feeling tired,I decided to lay down for a while and rest.
After getting up,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to buy something for dinner,but I saw that this wasn't what I wanted after looking at the ingredients,I headed for the local supermarket and they had what I was looking for.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and I finally got around to doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while I was laying down,I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind.I also manipulated my genitals to these images.I managed to stop myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and I also pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy on me.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough on myself.I need to really work on making it a habit in going to my Heavenly Father and asking for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.I really need to show this to my Heavenly Father by going to him constantly and asking him for help whenever these terrible and overwhelming urges come around.I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and asking to be forgiven.I really need to work on myself and really be tough.I want to heal and I want to overcome,but I won't if I habitually keep falling and going to ask for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support really badly and desperately.They both help keep me going.They also help reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointments with my therapist and the nurse practitioner in the early afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ