Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.I didn't have much time to shower,so I washed my hair over the sink and after that,I dried and brushed it.I also washed my face and shaved and when I was finished with that,I got dressed up in my new dress interview clothes and headed for the agency to fill out another application for the place where I was interviewed yesterday for another position,which I turned in shortly after leaving the agency.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local restaurant to ask for an employment application,but the said that they were out of paper applications.After I left,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I made a phone call to the agency to let them know and after hanging up,I quickly did my personal PC work and later on in the afternoon,I showered to clean up and when I was finished,I watched a little TV and after turning it off,I did some more personal PC work.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,which was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and at the same time,fantasized and lusted after them.I felt really miserable and I went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short into sin and I left nothing out as I prayed.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For the rest of the day,I had no more problems,but I stayed on guard and kept being watchful.I didn't want to fall back into sin again and I had to be careful.I have to continue working on getting tough with myself and going to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask for strength whenever these terrible temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some serious positive verbal support right now alongside your prayers.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly and desperately.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and my motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ