Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when that was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I went to a couple of local stores,one a local closeout store and the other a local supermarket.I bought a few things that I needed and I also turned in some empty bottles and cans that were in the back seat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal as it was getting near that time.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,on my road to recovery in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I fell into sin two consecutive times today and they were both for fantasizing and lusting after other men and also,for manipulating my genitals to these unhealthy and unwholesome images.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.However,I also had other things to say to my Heavenly Father aside from asking for forgiveness.I also talked to my Heavenly Father about the obsession that I have with men.This is one of the things that has been holding me back from the real healing that I so desperately need and from overcoming this terrible SSA.I prayed and I prayed to my Heavenly Father asking him to help me break free from this terrible obsession that I have and also,help in overcoming this obsession.I told him that I didn't want to be obsessed forever as I knew that obsession leads to nowhere.Plus,I even said to my Heavenly Father that obsessions can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble.I don't want to get into serious trouble.I want to be whole and also,I want to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.I asked for him to forgive me for the obsessing and to help me break free from this terrible obsession.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers,Please pray that I break from this terrible obsession that I have with men and to also help me in overcoming this obsession.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support daily and often,alongside your prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ