Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day after that was done.Later on,I started to clean up around little by little and even gotten around to sorting some of my vinyl out that I have near my stereo in the living room.I also did my breakfast and lunch dishes and after that,I reheated up some leftovers and that was my evening meal.After that,I watched another classic episode of a TV series that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Still,I am struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was struggling as I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals in the mid afternoon to sexual images of men clouding my mind and that led to giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop before it went too far and feeling ashamed because I gave in.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I let everything go and I pleaded for him to be merciful and to forgive me for sinning.After I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.I want to break free from this obsession that I have and I haven't been able to break free from that.If anyone can give me some helpful advice on how I can break free,please share it.I really need your support right now.Please pray for me that I do break free from this obsession that I have and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially some helpful advice on how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have with men.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ