Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The Sabres lost to the Montreal Canadians tonight by a score 2-1.They lost in overtime to them.It was disappointing but they still put a good effort in the game.They will be playing against the New York Rangers on Sunday night.I hope that they can beat them.Tonight was a disappointing loss but a win Sunday night would be good.Yes it would be.
Today,I was a little bored because,though I was enjoying my day off,there was really nothing to do today.I just stayed home after cashing my paycheck and picking up a few things for tomorrow night's dinner.Tonight,we had a small ham dinner and we watched some Christmas specials on video.It was a pretty fair day though it was a little boring as well.I did not leave the house today after I ran the errands that needed to be run.I am feeling a bit at edge because some of the old thought patterns are coming back to try to take me over.But I am trying to stay calm even though they are trying to get the better of me.I just simply have to let them flow and not give in to them.I have to show them that I am stronger than they are.I will not let these thoughts of the past overwhelm me nor will act out on them.I have come too far in my healing process of ridding myself of unwanted SSA to do that.I know the roots behind them but I won't give in to them.Again,I have to show them that I am stronger than they are even though it is a difficult thing to do.
I figure that all I need is a good nights sleep and I will be okay tomorrow morning.Tomorrow will be a new daya nd a new beginning.I will be singing tomorrow night for my friends and I am hoping that this all goes well.
Thoughts are always appreciated.FJ