Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.I also got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some stuff.
I first went to the local shopping mall to pick up a job application.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also listened to some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was really struggling with temptation when I arose out of bed.I was really tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I pleaded for strength.I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were being thrown at me from all sides.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went on with the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my attention to what I had to do and that kept my mind off of anything sexual with men.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father never intended for his gift of sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world is currently using and abusing it right now.I have to keep that in mind constantly and each and every day.I must never forget that my Heavenly Father meant for sexuality to be used responsibly and not for the selfish self-serving purposes that the world is using it for.They are also using sexuality irresponsibly and that is why there are so many STD cases each and ever year and the rise of AIDS,genital warts and genital herpes are examples of sexuality being used irresponsibly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and don't forget keeping me in your prayers.Prayerful and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this struggle and they both help keep both my determination and motivation strong.It also reaffirms that I am not alone in this particular struggle as nobody,male or female,who struggles can't ever go it alone.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ