Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to drop off two job applications.
Before I did that,I had lunch at a local kitchen.After lunch,I dropped the applications off at the places that I picked them up.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do my personal PC work.After that was done,I put on some wonderful Christian themed music while reading a Christian based book.I also did some banking on the telephone.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I headed over to the church to attend a Lenten dinner with my fellow worshipers,which was wonderful.I enjoyed the fellowship and some of the lessons that our pastor taught us.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement and also enjoyed a little bit more Christian themed music.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Why?It is because I endure unnatural sexual desires towards members of my own gender daily.Today was no exception.I was tempted upon arising out of bed to act out by fantasizing,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to the fantasies and lusting,but this time,I threw them on my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to indulge in these sinful sexual practices.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I prayed real hard for this strength.I didn't want to sin nor affirm the false Homosexual/Gay identity that I am determined to overcome and heal from.I prayed and prayed until the selfish self serving desire was gone.After praying,I felt better and much stronger.I went on with the rest of the day with no problems with temptations.I simply stayed busy for the rest of the day by going out and doing what I had to do,which took my mind off of anything sexual in a selfish self serving way,which is what the sexual activity connected with Homosexuality/SSA is.I am learning day in and day out that the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender fits no purpose in life nor has anything in my Heavenly Father's way when he created and gave humanity the gift of sexuality.The sexual activity between two members of the same gender is not only sinful,but it selfishly and self-servingly uses and abuses the bodies of men for inappropriate sexual connections that are very destructive and contradicts what my Heavenly Father set forth.It also does the same for women and their bodies as well.My Heavenly Father condemns any sexual activity outside his original plan for humanity and sexuality.My Heavenly Father's original plan for humanity is just as valid as the day he initially introduced that plan.His plan is described in the Holy Bible book of Genesis Chapter's One and Two.Right now,as a result of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever these temptations come at me,I am now feeling better and much stronger.My Heavenly Father,through his only begotten son Jesus Christ,gives me this strength in my human weakness and that strength is powerful than anything.Still,in spite of this,I am still in need of prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.I am also still in need of positive verbal encouragement to be left in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section each and every day to reaffirm me that I am not alone in my struggle.Please continue to pray and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ