Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day but I am feeling a little bit down.I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.
Today was a day off for me.It was Good Friday today and though I had a day off,I still had quite a bit to do today.It was mostly personal stuff but I managed to get everything done.
First,I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more extra things that we needed before the holiday.It was a pretty hectic day at the supermarket.There were a lot of people rushing to get some last minute things before the holiday arrives.It is only two days away and I am glad that this happens only once a year.I wouldn't want to go through this every day.It is just too stressful and hectic just trying to survive when a holiday weekend is upon us.
After dropping the groceries off at home,I registered some bills that I received after cashing my paycheck at the Where's George site and it was quite a lot.They are on the site as of now and I am going to be spending some of them bills tomorrow night when I go out to sing for my friends.I am looking forward to that tomorrow night.
After doing that,I decided to go to a library in another part of Western New York but changed my mind.I was feeling a little nervous while trying to drive out there and I decided to just go and pick up a couple of records that my record store friend was holding for me and head for home.Before going home,I decided to make one last trip to the supermarket and pick up something else for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work after eating.I also watched the season finale of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.I have only more thing to do before calling it a day.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I have been hearing so much about Same-Sex Marriage as of late.Today,I heard a little bit more regarding this and believe me,it is just weighing me down.I feel depressed and saddened by this very prospect because as I have stated previously,the institution of marriage is between a man and a woman and not the way that these so-called "Gay" activists want it to be.It's bad enough that these so-called "Gay" people believe all the lies that they are told relentlessly that they are "born that way" and that there is nothing they can do to change themselves.I am also fed up with the mental health profession also pushing forth these lies and encouraging those who are living in this sort of lifestyle to just go out and be what they are as well as be proud of it.This is not only WRONG but it is also not the way that it is intended to be.It really makes me angry that many people are believing these lies and are not pursuing the right roads.They believe the lies and then they believe more lies.I know that lies will always be spread no matter how hard the effort to suppress them.But it is just terrible that so many people would rather believe a liar than those who speak truth.
This whole thing is going to be a real test to my SSA struggles.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am already reaching the height of the ride.I don't know when I am going down again.But when I do,anything can happen.I am just hoping that the governor of New York state and President Obama vetoes the Same-Sex Marriage bills so marriage can be kept between a man and a woman and not be changed to satisfy the political attitudes and beliefs of radicals trying to get their own way with the leaders who were either elected or who take over after the previous elected leaders resigned.
But as stated,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.Despite my depression,I am glad that there are people who believe the truth and are fighting to keep traditional marriage legal.I just uploaded the link to the website for National Organization For Marriage and the commercial AD that they made on my blog.For those visiting,feel free to check them out.Again,I am glad that there are groups of people who believe the truth and are spreading the truth in the midst of this storm that is happening in front of us.Despite the lies,there is truth in the midst of the lies and it makes me feel better knowing that.My love goes out to those spreading the truth.
As I stated,I am going to go out and sing for my friends tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.As for the holiday,I am going to stay home and take it easy and try to make it a very good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ
7 comments:
You're not alone FJ. Many of us believe in the truth. And I know many Christian mental health professionals who continue to uphold the truth despite the cultural advocacy.
I don't know about Gov. Paterson. President Obama will probably sign any pro-gay law that Congress passes. So we need to do what we can to persuade Congress not to pass anything in favor of same sex "marriage" or to repeal the DOMA.
But whatever happens, do not let it weaken your resolve to live as God would have you live.
Christians are called to follow Christ. We can't control what the rest of the culture does, and I've accepted already that same sex marriage is going to be reality over time in this country, with four states already having it in place and more will continue to follow. We are called to love our neighbors, even if they are same sex marriage partners, and so Christians wil have to adjust to this reality of our culture and not let anger rule our responses. We can continue to be witnesses to the gospel message and Christ's place in our life.
Jeff: I'm beginning to understand (and appreciate!) what you are saying more and more. I was not able to quite understand it before because I was feeling so desperate in my own battle with SSA. As I am becoming more healed in my SSA, I am becoming less "afraid" of the gay culture around me, and more open to embracing and loving gay people (not the culture) as Jesus would.
FJ: I may be wrong but, at the core, I hear you saying that you are afraid of how legislation would impact your own battle against SSA when the culture becomes more permissive. Perhaps when you begin to experience greater internal change (and not just "avoiding sin") you may also begin to experience greater confidence in your own walk despite the culture?
To All
Thanks for the comments. It is a very rewarding feeling that I am finally being heard on this site after almost three years of blogging. Most of the time, I have been blogging and nobody had even bothered to visit or comment.
But the reason why I am feeling the way that I am feeling is because I am just getting sick and tired of hearing so much about the same old things, especially this baloney about Same-Sex Marriage. I know that I am going to hear more about this in the news within the near and distant future but with the roller coaster ride that I have been on as of late, I really don't know how I am going to handle this. I just hate it that the lies are being spread and I know that they will continue to be spread no matter what, but again I still hate it. Plus, I am also tired of seeing others who believe what I believe getting kicked around just because of what they believe in. I have also been kicked around many times so I know exactly how that feels.
What I need is some advice on how to handle the way I feel in the midst of this storm and how I can better manage my emotions within. Any advice would be extremely helpful. Thanks.
I don't think that the concept that SSA is a biological condition (i.e. "born that way") is necessarily a lie. Personally, I don't think there is enough accredited research either way to say what the cause of SSA is--either in males or females.
As Christians, it shouldn't matter. Something being biological does not mean it's unchangeable (and on the flip side, something being environmental doesn't mean it's changeable). I personally think that my homosexual inclinations are more biological in nature. The environmental theories regarding abuse or detachment from same-sex peers don't really fit my story.
That's okay with me. Even if my SSA feelings never go away and I never develop attractions to the opposite sex, it really won't phase me, because I think that celibacy is a noble, though admittedly difficult, option and one that more SSA men should consider (since failed marriages are worse than lifelong celibacy). God's law is God's law, whether we are born that way or not. Theologically, we have no excuse, since we're all born to sin anyway.
It's important to put your faith in Christ and Christ alone. Don't measure your worth by whether you're married. Desire to be a better Christian, not a heterosexual. No one was ever saved by their heterosexuality, after all. And no one was damned for homosexual temptations, since even Jesus was tempted in all manner by the things that tempt us.
I am also fed up with the mental health profession also pushing forth these lies ...So, all the acknowledged experts in the field say one thing, but you know better, because ...?
TRiG.
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