Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and coffee and after getting dressed,I headed over to my Men's Network meeting.
I had a pretty tough time getting there as a result of the high winds.But I managed to make it and I joined the rest of the men when I arrived.
The meeting was wonderful.We talked and watched a DVD and after the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Save-A-Lot to pick up something.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up another thing.After that,I headed over to the nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and stayed there as a result of the high winds that were blowing in the area.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work.After that,I had a quick lunch and afterwards,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and that it starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up.I was really tempted to masturbate the erection away as the erection was also another throbber.I tossed and turned,but I decided to get up since I also had to use the bathroom at that time.After the erection died down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped that temptation,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard and be watchful when that happens again.I also have to continue keeping in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want,which is make contact with my lost maleness.If I am going to start feeling like a man as I am a man myself,I need to d it in a healthy and authentic way with other men in the forms of friendships,bonding and a healthy and authentic connection.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.I am also going to do my laundry in the afternoon as it really does need to get done.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ