Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as well as washed my face.After that,I shaved.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I watched a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I got dressed and headed out to run a few errands.
I first went to a local nursing facility to see if a friend that is temporary staying there if he was going back home,but they told me that he wasn't and it would depend on what the local mission organization would say when.After talking with a social worker at the nursing facility,I left the facility and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to pick up a Priority Mail envelope.After that,I stopped a few local restaurants to pick up a few things for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate everything that I bought and when that was finished,I made a couple more phone calls and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a few more classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though lately,I have been struggling in regards to SSA.All the tension that is going on in my family is making the temptations go into overdrive.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing so,which led to the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.Last night,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I unloaded everything to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into the terrible temptations.I also talked about all the tensions that are going on within my family and that I didn't know whether I was coming or going with all this happening.I prayed and prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I also knew and truly believed that he heard everything that I told him about.I said one final prayer last night before going to bed.Today,I kept myself busy by simply doing what I had to do personal errands wise and I had no thoughts creep up into my mind.On the other hand,in regards to my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for a while,but has been made worse as a result of all the tension within my family.One day,I am feeling pretty good,but the next day,down and not so good.I have also had periods where I was in a rut for a while and it would lift,but the depression would return a day or two later.I did make the phone call to the psychiatric center and I am hoping that they will return my call soon.I am hoping to finally find the right therapy to help me let go of the unresolved issues and start to transcend and heal so Can finally heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it will be Veteran's Day,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ