Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the drug store to pick up some prescriptions refills and after paying the co-pay on those,I delivered a few free newspapers to a few friends of mine.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my prescriptions away and I relaxed while watching a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the BPD emotional roller coaster ride,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to walk to the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,but managed to stop myself before it went too far and immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sin was forgotten.I was still tempted throughout the day,but it wasn't so bad once I stayed busy.I simply went about the day doing what had to be done and it was wonderful to be out and about.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen later on,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ