Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.It was also a really big day today as it was Confirmation Sunday,as well as the first Sunday of Pentecost.I also did a Holy Bible reading today in front of the congregation.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also got positive accolades from everyone in the congregation for my Holy Bible reading.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to leave the house again as I was invited out to someone else's place to spend the afternoon with.
I spent a few hours with that person and it was a very meaningful time where I really felt appreciated to be in his company.After that few hours with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a pack of bar soaps.After paying for then,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.Since I had dinner at that other man's place,I simply took it easy and enjoyed what I was watching.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I let them take the lead.They also both help in sustaining me when they take the lead and get me through it all.I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again hit with the temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of it,which made the erection start to soften.I started to walk towards the bathroom as I had to use it and after finishing,my genitals were soft and I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I wasn't tempted by anything connected with SSA as I kept busy and tried to keep my mind occupied with other things,such as healthy and positive thinking and also,on things of a more spiritual note and thinking more on these things.It actually worked and I never thought about anything sexual as my mind was cleared and also,cleaned of all things that were sexual in nature.I simply kept my mind focused on these things for today and it helped.Though I did escape today,there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me a positive word of two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I continually ask these things because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they also make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue to want to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ