Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the church to help out in some landscaping and general repairs on the property.After a few hours of doing some work,I headed for home.There are still some things that need to be done,but we decided to get that done another day.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.After that,I relaxed and decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery to move forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply put this particular struggle in the hands of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This just shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and I do feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and walk.This actually made the erection soften and I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I kept busy today bu doing the volunteer work at the church and having some terrific fellowship with the men who were helping alongside.It was great and it took my mind off of everything sexual and that was great.Even after I came home,I still didn't have anything sexual come into my mind as I kept my mind on other things and this helped to keep my mind clean and clear.Though I got through this day,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me as I am going through this struggle with SSA and also,I would appreciate it that all of you please leave a positive word of encouragement for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey's to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have church as usual and I have been invited over to someone's place to hang out with them for a while.After that is all over,I just might take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ