Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda today.
I first went to a local supermarket to pay my electric bill and after that,I headed over to the local hospital as I had an appointment with therapist today.
The session with my therapist went well and after that was over,I headed for home
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation really early this morning when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for weakening and falling into sin.I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sins are forgotten by God and Christ once forgiven.Throughout the rest of the day,I was being tempted to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have and at times,the temptations can get very overwhelming.I didn't want to fall again,so I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I kept asking God to give me the strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me from all sides.It is a difficult life that we who struggle with SSA live and at times,the struggle can get pretty intense.Lately,it has been getting very intense with me as these terrible temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have have really been coming at me.I am really having a difficult time and it isn't pretty.I am really in desperate need for prayers.To those of you who repeatedly visit my blog and read my posts,please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I would really appreciate that.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle.They also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ