Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply put this particular struggle in the hands of my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help me in my endurance when it comes to coping with the symptoms of both these particular psychiatric disabilities.With God and Christ leading the way,it makes it a tad easier.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften.I didn't go back to sleep until the erection had completely died down as I wasn't about to give into that particular temptation.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but I chose to stay busy and try to keep my mind off of anything sexual,including the negative sexual images of men that try to take over my mind.Though it wasn't easy,I managed to stay busy by just doing what I had to do and also,to do whatever it would take to take my mind off of anything having to with the unnatural sexual practices that are connected with the so called "Homosexual/Gay" lifestyle.I always have to keep in mind that God never intended sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around is using and abusing it.It is never easy to keep your mind on other things that are holy and productive,but with the help of both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,it can be done.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep me in your prayers as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouraging words right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle against this terrible SSA and also,they motivate me to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of volunteering to help with landscaping at the church,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do after that gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ