Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to see if they had anything that I was looking for,which they didn't.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I did 4/5 of my personal PC work.After that,I headed back out to see the new Oz movie;Oz:The Great and Powerful,which I really enjoyed immensely as,IMHO,the film was better than I thought it was going to be.After the movie was over,I headed over to a local bargain outlet store to look around,but couldn't find anything that I was looking for.After that,I headed to a Super Wal-Mart in another area of the county that I lived.I went there to see of they had any footwear in my size,but I did buy a new pair that did fit.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got into the house quickly as I saw storm clouds in the air and I managed to make it home just in time as it did storm some.I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful and also,seeing a wonderful movie today to boot.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,which didn't last very long.I had to get up and use the bathroom anyway when this happens,so I headed for the bathroom,did what I had to do and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to sleep after getting back in bed.For the rest of the day,I wasn't really tempted to indulge in any fantasies,lusting and genital manipulation to them as I kept busy through the rest of the day.I kept my mind occupied with things,such as going to the movies and doing a little bit of window and bought a pair of new walking shoes.I kept busy and the unwanted and the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA didn't hamper me today.While today was great,there is still tomorrow and the temptations can come back the next day.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who continue to follow my blog and read that posts.I am also asking for all of you to please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of seeing my therapist,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ