Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I did try to get a few things done.
I first went to a local kitchen for lunch and after having lunch,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's places and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few important things and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that they are there to help me and that is great and also,makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am going to be very blunt and honest here in regards to this.I again fell early this morning by masturbating to images of men clouding my mind.This was the second consecutive fall that I had this week.I really felt miserable when this happened and really felt terrible afterwards.After getting up and washing my hands,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and sinning against him.I also begged for God to show me his mercy as I was truly sorry for falling and sinning against him.After the prayer I felt better.I was tempted again throughout the day and I didn't want to fall again.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations.I didn't want to sin again against him.I kept it up and everything.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please don't be shy and say a few encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but rarely is a comment of any sorts left.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ