Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had a few things on my agenda and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I also met someone that I knew there who was hanging out there and we made plans to get together later.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,my friend and I headed over to the local kitchen to have lunch and after we were finished,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and I eagerly awaited the arrival of my caseworker who has now returned from her maternity leave.
After the meeting with my caseworker,which went pretty good,I called my friend and I headed over to his place to hang out and talk with him for a while.
After everything was over at my friends house,I headed straight home as I took my medication while I was there and I wanted to be home when it kicked in so I wouldn't drive home drowsy.
When I got home,I simply changed into some night clothes and finished the day with some recommended Holy Bible reading.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one/minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to God and ask him in his son Christ Jesus' name to get me through all of the difficulties and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my fight and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also a throbbing erection at that.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection start to soften and I also got up and walked for a bit afterwards.After my genitals were fully softened,I went right back to bed and to sleep.I really wasn't tempted in any other way today as I kept busy with other things.I was out of the house for much of the day as I went to my group,lunch,had a good meeting with my caseworker and spent some time with a friend.I simply kept my mind on other positive things and the unnatural desires that I have didn't pose any problem today.Though this was so as far as today went,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep me in your prayers,as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please keep me in your prayers and when you visit,don't be afraid nor shy to leave a positive word or two of encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and they also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ