Happy Easter(i.e.Resurrection Day)Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I have been feeling mighty depressed for most of the day and I really don't know why.My only theory about this is that I was sick about three weeks ago and I am still feeling the psychological effects of it.Today,when I had dinner,I didn't eat very much.Don't get me wrong,I enjoyed the meal that my mom prepared and it was delicious but I didn't eat too much.Again,I have been feeling mighty depressed.I am hoping that this spell of the blues is only temporary and that it doesn't get chronic and I wind up taking a prescription anti-depressant.I did take a couple of St.John's Wart capsules and I do feel a little bit better but the blues are still there and again,I am hoping that the disappear pretty soon.
After I ate,I laid down for a while and my mind started to wander.I wound up daydreaming and before I knew it,I was daydreaming about having sex with another man.I haven't had these daydreams in a long time and I started getting really horny as a result.My penis was hard and my anus was also starting to itch.These feelings lasted about 10 minutes before they started to disappear.Not only that,I almost gave into the temptation to masturbate because I was really hard.I wanted to simply stroke the feeling away,but didn't.I did ask the creator to forgive me for me letting my mind wander like that and for almost giving into the temptation as well as to help me find out why I was feeling so miserable.I did feel better but I still felt depressed at the same time.
Before I did eat,I went and visited with a colleague of mine for a few minutes to simply wish him a Happy Easter(i.e.Resurrection Day)and to hang out for a few minutes.He had some dinner guests over since my mom was cooking dinner,I only stayed a few minutes.After that,I went home to eat.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the week ahead.I am hoping that this week goes pretty good.I am also hoping to feel better during this week.After the depression that I have been feeling lately,a good week would be the right thing to make me feel better.I do have to get a new bottle of St.John's Wart capsules tomorrow or whenever I can.Before the night is through,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two with the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that a nice talk or two will help make me feel better.That would be great.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution group,which I will be attending tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the night and day ahead.FJ