Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went over to my sister's house to pick up my laundry.After doing that,I headed over top the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my laundry and what I bought at the Super Wal-Mart.I headed over to my case worker's office after that.
The short meeting with my case worker went good.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still on my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I have to say that having BPD is a very difficult thing to have and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it can be very burdensome.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory symptoms of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of throwing the struggle on God and asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the complex emotional roller coaster ride that I am always on.They both help in sustaining me and also shows that I am not alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.The urge to grab my genitals and masturbate was really overwhelming.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I tossed and I turned,but the erection continued to throb.I started to sit up and I got out of bed to walk a little and as I walked,the erection softened and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God to ask for strength to fight and resist these temptations.I am learning that the more that I resist every temptation,the more stronger and overwhelming they become with each resistance.I am learning that temptations will always keep coming back no matter how many times you fight and resist them.But I am always fighting every temptation one day at a time and if I get through one day without giving into them,there is the next day and the battle to fight and resist resumes.I continued to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day as the temptations kept coming back and each and every time that I did and asked for strength to fight and resist,I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am also again asking for prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly.I also ask that you leave and encouraging word or two in the comments section.I see that there are people visiting my blog,but don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section while doing so.Please leave me an encouraging word or two as both your prayers and encouraging words keep me going in my battle against the unnatural desires connected with SSA.I would really appreciate your prayers and your encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group that I must attend and lunch at a local kitchen after that.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ