Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to my usual Monday building and improving self esteem group,which went as well as expected.After the group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a constant daily struggle and at times,it can get really difficult.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle.The power that both God and Christ give goes beyond what any human therapy can provide.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again awakened by yet another throbbing erection and the temptation for me to masturbate it away was really strong.I really fought hard to resist this temptation and it was a very overwhelming one at that.I sat up and since I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,I got up and as I headed for the bathroom,the erection softened and was fully soft when I arrived there and went back to sleep when I was finished.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.The temptations were really strong and overwhelming.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I threw every temptation that I had on them and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I simply prayed for strength each and every time and I felt better as a result.I am also still asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog to continue praying for me as I am going through all of this and please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as your prayers and words of encouragement help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to go to my sister's house to get my laundry done.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ