Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things on my agenda.
I first went to my Thursday Spirituality group and I went there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I left his place and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV after I did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day as I also got some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky recovery continues moving forward,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory on a daily basis.I never know how my moods will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a very difficult thing to deal with on a daily basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It again shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.I am not suffering alone and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do in helping me get through this BPD/Schizophrenia struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one.I tossed and turned,but the erection continued to throb even more.I felt that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and went to the bathroom and as I was walking there,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I arrived at the bathroom.After using it,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have kept coming at me constantly.Each and every day,I am at war with this terrible SSA and the temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have connected with SSA can get very strong and very overwhelming.The temptations get stronger with each resistance that I make when they come at me.I keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ so I don't fall or fail.I ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist all temptations as they come.I try not to give into any temptation and it is a very difficult thing to fight and resist.But with God and Christ at the wheel,at least I am not alone in this battle against those terrible unnatural desires that I have and I feel overjoyed that they are there with me in my fight.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight.I see that many people visit,but don't leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please leave a positive word of encouragement for me.I also ask that y'all keep up your prayers for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with a gastro type doctor at the local hospital.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ