Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go onward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some fellowship with everyone,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I had a light lunch and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did a little bit more cleaning up around the house.I even managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.For me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I still attend my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about it with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help sustain me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of their help.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was another overwhelming temptation at that.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I sat up and chose to do so for a while and when the erection died down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I never know when the temptation will hit or what form it will take.I am always at war with these unnatural sexual desires and at times,the battle seems to be a very impossible one to fight.When that happens,I simply turn to God and his son Jesus Christ and they help in getting me through it all.I simply talk about the temptation with God and his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It shows that I don't have to go it alone and that I can turn to them whenever I need to do so to reduce any type of temptation.If I do ever give into temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help and everything else that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ