Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I headed over to a Men's Network meeting,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and bought a few things.After that,I headed over to the public library to do my personal PC work and also,to print something from my e-mail.After that was all done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more diffcult in regards to hearing sounds that nobody else hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or way too unbearable to handle.I simply take it to both God and his son Jesus Christ in prayer and they help sustain me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for all that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a really overwhelming temptation at that.I had to really use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and waited for the erection to die down and when it did,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in a fight to resist all sorts of temptations to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have,which I have been battling for years and the battle gets even more difficult day after day,week after week,month after month and year after year.I am always at war with them and the war can get way too difficult to handle.When that happens,I simply continue to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the temptations seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or way too unbearable to handle.I simply take the temptation to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after talking about it to them,the temptation is reduced to nil.If ever I do give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for that and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God as he forgives the sin of giving into temptation.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the service.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ