Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I got dressed up in a suit to go to church and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm to both the worship service and the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the service.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was surprised to see that my locally living sister was already at the house doing some cleaning up.When I got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants,I started to help out a little by bring some more stuff to the cellar and also,doing some much needed vacuuming in the living room before putting some stuff back in it's place.I also managed to get a few more things done.After doing those things,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and I headed out to go visit my mom at the hospital.
On the way there,I stopped at the local Target to pick up a few important personal things.After paying for them,I headed for a local restaurant to pick up a sandwich for a quick lunch.After eating that,I headed over to the hospital.
When I got to the hospital,I spent some time with my mom keeping her company for a while and after I did,I headed over to a friend's house who lived within the same area of the hospital and spent some time with him.
After spending some time with my friend,I headed over to my sister's boyfriend's house to have a little bit of eating with them.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in at the same time.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.For me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or unbearable to handle.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and talk about it and after that,I feel a tad better.I continue to seek God and ask him to help sustain me.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply turned to the opposite side and the erection simply died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still in the fight for my life when it comes to SSA and how to fight it.It is a very difficult fight where I am at war with the unnatural desires that I have and the fight is always a difficult one.It is simply a battle to do the right thing in God's eyes and to continue that fight.I am still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming and seemingly unbearable to handle.Whenever tempted to act out,I simply take it to God in prayer and I throw everything on him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better and the temptation is reduced to nil.If I ever were to give into any temptation,I simply ask God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,which is the Labor Day holiday,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ