Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,including registering a whole bunch of bills at the Where's George website,and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
My niece was over for much of the day and when she went out for an hour to go to a local supermarket,I watched over my mom while she wasn't there and when my niece returned,I headed out to do what I had planned for the day.
I first went to city hall to pay on the water bill and after that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out a couple more of important bills.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local store to pick up some stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work while watching my mom.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.It is a never ending ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more than anything.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help sustain me.It is simply a matter of bringing the struggle to God and him and his son help keep me calm,cool and help with getting it together.It is still difficult,but God and Christ both help to make it only a tad easier.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of their help.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.It was also a very overwhelming urge at that.I simply sat up and while doing so,the erection softened and since I had to use the bathroom,I walked there and the erection fully softened as I was heading for there and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still in a constant fight to resist the urge to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and the fight is always a very difficult one at that.I am always at war and it does seem that at times,the unnatural desires that I have refuse to surrender.But I am not going to give Satan nor his minions anything that they want because they want me to weaken and surrender to Homosexuality,but I refuse to do so.When that happens,I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help get me through any temptation.I simply throw the temptation on God and ask him in his son Christ's name to help me and the temptation is reduced to nil.If I do give into any form of temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and it is forever forgotten by God.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help and getting me through every sort of temptation under the sun.
Tomorrow,I have a Spirituality group that I must attend and after that,lunch at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ