Tonight,I am feeling really awful,angry and depressed.This has not been a very good day.
Last night,on the way home after dropping my friend off,I had an accident.While on the expressway,I suddenly lost control of my car and I crashed into the concrete wall on the expressway.I was feeling really shaken up by this and when I got out of the car,I saw that there was a lot of traffic backed up.As I turned my motor off,I stood by my car to watch all the other cars drive by and even a few of the drivers stopped to see if I was okay.I was physically okay but emotionally I was not very well at all.I felt a nagging pain in my stomach and I was also feeling a little shocked and disorganized.I even phoned 911 to report this and I saw that there was help there in the form of New York state Park Police and there was also an ambulance at the scene.Not only that,one SUV full of people was also there and they stayed until the whole thing was over.For most of the time,I was questioned by the park police & the paramedics.The paramedics took vital signs and even had me sign a statement as to them advising me to go to the hospital,but I refused.I just wanted to go home and put this anguish behind.One of the park policemen took me home.I had to show him how to get there because the area outside the nearby state park was foreign to him.Before I did get home,I phoned my mom to tell her what went wrong and what had happened.I also assured her that I was physically okay but I was really shaken and really over the hill when it came to my emotional state.I also had to do the usual stuff like the breathalizer test,the 9 step walk and the eyes moving with the pen.I passed 2 out of three,which is fairly decent.
When I got home,I phoned my friend and told him what happened and he said that he was sorry for what happened to me and that he hoped that I would be okay.He even phoned me earlier this afternoon.Before I heard from him,I did call the Christian counselor that I talk to every 2 weeks and I told him everything that happened and my state of emotional health.After a 5 minute conversation,he said a prayer over the phone and hoped that everything will work out for the better in the end for me.
Despite having a wonderful night of singing,my entire weekend was a wash-out.This accident really ruined for me.I am now at home feeling the same way that I felt last night.I am just distressed because I can't go out tonight as a result of what had happened.I will have to call the place tonight to inform them that I won't be coming in tonight.I am just hoping that I can get out of this rut fast and that everything will work out for me.
Right now,my car is at my regular mechanics garage.I will be calling him tomorrow morning to explain the whole story to him as to what happened to the car.I know that he will tell me that there is nothing that he can do to fix or even save the car.Fortunately,I still have a vehicle that has been off the road for a little over a year.I am hoping to get some use out of this vehicle until I can get another 4 door car.I am hoping that this can be on the road soon.It is a compact 4X4,but I assume that it's better than nothing.The only drawback is that I will have hardly any room to put laundry bags in it when I get this back on the road if ever.But again,I am hoping that this can work out either way.
I had a light dinner tonight.I really didn't feel too hungry but I ate so not to hurt my mom's feelings.I had to show appreciation for all the hard work that she did.
Overall,this wasn't a very good week.I lost some of my money.I lost a personal bag of mine and now this crash.The only fortunate thing is that I didn't ram into anyone elses cars on the expressway and that I wasn't seriously hurt.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am hoping that everything will work out for me so I will have a vehicle to use.Again,I am hoping that everything will go well.
That was my disastrous weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ