Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed out to do a few personal stuff that I needed to do.
I spent out much of the day just getting things that I needed to get done accomplished.After it was all done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got into a lounge suit and watched a couple of movies that I popped into the DVD player.I also had dinner while watching one of them.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.I ask for strength and for help to get through it all.I feel more sustained and much calmer and level.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection,though it didn't last long.I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished and after that,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted minimally throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed out for much of the day and kept my mind on what I was doing out in the community.It took my mind off of everything sexual and it was good.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me while I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I desperately need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also ask that you please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Prayers and encouraging verbal support do work in many ways and they give positive benefits.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ