Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the last morning and I showered quickly.I was hoping to wake up earlier in the day,but wound up oversleeping as a result of me having a difficult time trying to get to sleep last night.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did only a small portion of my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I had a terrible screeching headache.I had to take two headache powders to get rid of the pounding.As a result of that,I took in too much caffeine and I wound up urinating through the early afternoon.
Today,I had an appointment with the nurse practitioner and I headed for her office at the local hospital.
The session with her went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a lounge suit and I finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched an episode of a classic TV show on one of my DVD sets.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and they help keep me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.The urges were really overwhelming.I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him for the strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed real hard.I felt much stronger after praying as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave what I had asked for.I am again asking all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to continue overcoming SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ