Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I was out for much of the day running errands and seeing that much personal stuff was getting done.I went to a couple of stores to pick up a few things that were needed and after that was done,I paid a friend a visit and talked with them for a while.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dripped off a few newspapers at a few people's houses and at one of them,I had a talk with the guy who lived there,another friend,as he was taking out his trash,which I helped him with.After talking with him,I finished the job of dropping off the newspapers and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a movie in the DVD player and I watched it for a while.After that,I simply relaxed for the rest of the evening and took it easy.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got out of bed and headed for there.That made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Only this time,since I was out in the community,it really wasn't that bad.I stayed out and about and I kept busy.This kept my mind off of anything sexual with other men and kept me occupied.It took my mind off of sexual stuff with other men and that was good.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.You may not realize this,but your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my motivation to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and a scheduled job interview,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ