Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went as well as planned.After that group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After having lunch,I headed out to do a few errands.After that errands were done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mind was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I got dressed up in dress clothes as I had a job interview that I had to go to.
I think that the interview went well and after it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and headed out to run a few more errands.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and heated up my evening meal and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both hope in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate during the wee early morning hours came at me when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it real bad.As I headed for there,my genitals started to soft and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day as sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stayed out for much of the day running my errands and concentrating on my job interview and that took my mind off of sexual stuff with men.I kept busy and that helped in more ways than one.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking for prayers by all of my followers as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some encouraging word in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.They,your prayers and verbal encouragement,both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and share some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a job interview in the early afternoon,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ