Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though a little later than I wanted to,and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in suit and headed over to the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as there were quite a few people worshiping today.After some wonderful fellowship with the people,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I had a light lunch and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I still attend my therapy sessions,which I have this coming Tuesday when I have to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not suffering alone and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came to me again in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I tried tossing and turning,but to no avail.I sat up and didn't touch myself as I did have the overwhelming urge to do that as well.This time,I really had to throw this temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist this urge.At times,and this wee early morning hour today was no exception,sexual images and lustful thoughts of other men cloud my mind and I really had to ask God and his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge and I kept up in prayer until the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lustful thoughts of other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or near the point of orgasm and stopping.Each and every time that urge came,I prayed to God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all the urges.It is difficult struggling with SSA and it is never an easy thing,but the best thing is that God and his son Christ Jesus are always there to help out when they are asked.It is great that they are because without them,I would be falling and giving into the urges everyday and every night.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog and to also please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Why?Because both your prayers and your positive encouragement help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Please leave an encouraging comment or two and also,please continue in prayers for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ