Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I got a couple of phone calls today from both my locally living sister and my father.They both wished me a Happy Birthday and I Thanked them.I also got quite a few birthday wishes from many of my friends on Facebook and that was wonderful.
I had a meeting with my case worker here at the house and after that was over,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed and after paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got ready for my dinner engagement as my sister and her boyfriend invited me out to dinner as a birthday surprise for me.
The dinner was wonderful.I ate so much that I was really full.After the dinner was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
Since I ate out tonight,it gave me a break from cooking something.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and they both help in sustaining me.I never have anything to worry about or fear when it comes this constant emotional roller coaster ride connected with having BPD or the hallucinatory effects connected with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have.I do feel a tad better when I know that God and Christ are both leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and didn't go back to sleep until the erection softened.When it did,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing of other men involved with this as well.I stopped myself and asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into the temptation to commit that unclean and impure act that I did and I felt better.For the rest of the day,I was only tempted again only once and I threw that temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist that temptation and I felt better after praying for that strength.For much of the day,since I wasn't home,but having dinner out of the house as a result of my birthday,I wasn't really tempted anymore to act out on the unnatural desires that I have as a result of SSA and the celebrations took my mind off of my struggles and that was great.I am again that everyone who follows my blog to continue praying for me and to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your positive encouragement help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ