Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.After the session with her,I headed over to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed to a local supermarket to pick up one more things that I needed.After paying for that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions are always on a constant up and down scale and at times,it can get pretty nerve racking.While having BPD is bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to get way too unbearable for me to handle.Whenever the symptoms try to get the better of me,I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this struggle and that is pretty good to know.God and his son Christ Jesus collectively can help get me through anything.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came again when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.Fortunately,it didn't last very long.I simply turned to my left in bed and the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into temptation later on in the morning by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men while still in bed and trying to make myself wake up.After that happened,I did ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for my sins and I felt better.I kept up in prayer to God all day because the temptations to act out by fantasizing and manipulating my genitals while fantasizing really came at me.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help give me the strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations.I felt stronger after praying and I kept up in it whenever these temptations came at me and tried to envelope me.I had to show that I owned my desires and not the opposite way.I also had to try and show that my sexuality doesn't own me,but I own it.I kept up in prayer all day and asked God in Christ Jesus' name for strength to continue to fight and resist all of these temptations.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read it to continue praying for me as well.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section for me as well.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against SSA and make me even more determined to overcome it.Please continue praying for me and again,leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ