Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful and I did get a lot out of both of them.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweat suit.I had a light lunch and after I was done with that,I did my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and it's a double whammy that really gets difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions and they are going great.I am also still taking my medication as directed and it is working pretty good for me.Despite the therapy and medication,I am still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing this to both God and Christ Jesus,putting it in their hands and them leading the way once I have done so.It shows that I am not alone and that I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Christ for the power that they provide as they provide power and strength far beyond what any human therapy can provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was plagued by a triple whammy in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by throbbing erections in the wee early morning hours at three separate intervals.The first two didn't last very long,but the third one was the worst of the three.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this difficult temptation as there were sexual images of men creeping up into my mind.I simply started to get up and headed towards the bathroom,but the erection still wasn't softening.This time,I really had to pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as this was a very overwhelming urge.I prayed real hard and I kept asking God in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming temptation and as I prayed,the erection started softening and after I used the bathroom,I went back to bed and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this triple whammy,which was the first triple whammy that I had in a long time,I had to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was being tempted to act out throughout the whole day.I was being tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbation to these fantasies,or to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping,or to simply masturbate the rest of the way once orgasm has come.I was tempted to do all of that throughout he day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day and asked them to give me strength to fight and resist every urge/temptation that came at me from all sides.I always felt better after praying for that strength and it always worked.I kept taking it to God and God provided everything asked.I am again also asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read my blog posts and also,some encouraging words by all of my followers in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for their prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ