Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,despite some setbacks.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,despite some setbacks,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It's bad enough that I am struggling with BPD,but I also struggle with schizophrenic tendencies,which makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also doesn't make my SSA struggles any easier,either.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing up with God and Christ what I am struggling with and them not only sustaining me,but also understanding at the same time.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came again to me in the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I really had to use everything in my own power to fight and resist this temptation to masturbate the erection away.I simply sat up and began to get out of my bed to walk to the bathroom as I had to use it.After using the bathroom,I went back to sleep as the erection had fully softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out in many ways.I had to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist all of the temptations that came at me.I kept up in prayer and kept asking for strength to fight and resist each and every temptation that came at me from all sides.I always felt better after doing all of that as I knew that both God and Christ heard me and helped me.I kept it up all day and really worked hard to resist all types of temptations,with the help of God and Christ,of course.I always have to keep in mind that I can't go through this struggle alone as alone,I am weak and without relying on God and Christ,I would give into all sorts of temptations.I still,at times,get tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I willfully choose to stay home when that particular temptation comes around.Though I am keeping up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ,I am still asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I am always in need of prayer by everyone who understands what I am going through and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section,as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide in this fight against this terrible SSA.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ