Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I got out of bed a little later than usual and I had to shower quickly.After my shower,I quickly ate my usual quick breakfast and had to settle on just one cup of coffee this morning.After breakfast,I immediately got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.Everyone told me how much they missed me and that they were glad to have me back.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweat suit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for a while and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on the usual one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I still continue to attend my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I never have nothing to fear as long as God and Christ are leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I simply got up and I headed for the bathroom to use it and while walking there,the erection started to soften and when I went back to bed,the erection had fully softened.Though I escaped this episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I was tempted throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept asking for strength to fight and resist all the urges that came at me.I threw them all on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I always felt better as a result of that.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who continues to follow my blog and read every post that I write on here and again,I also ask for words of encouragement by all of my followers.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for being there and also,for taking the lead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ