Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things planned for today.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It is really difficult to deal with day to day,or at times,minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that with God and his son Christ Jesus leading the way,I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,another throbbing morning erection woke me up out of a deep sleep and my temptations to masturbate it away were really strong.I sensed that I had t use the bathroom and I got up and headed for there.As I was heading for there,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,the erection was fully soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out throughout the day.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping and/or proceeding to masturbate.Yes,when I do that,sexual images of men and other sexual thoughts concerning men cloud my mind and I really had to pray real hard to get rid of those lustful and immoral thoughts.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ repeatedly to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me clear my mind of the lustful and immoral thoughts.I always felt better after praying and I kept it up throughout the day as the thoughts and the temptations kept coming at me.I again ask for prayers by those who follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue praying for me as I am going through all of this stuff as I am working to get back on an even keel emotionally.I also ask for an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going.I will also continue in prayer to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and again,please continue to pray for me and again,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you followers for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ