Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
The first thing that I did was that I went to the post office to mail out an important bill payment.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I didn't go out again for the rest of the day as the weather was still "COLD!",with wind-chills in the -10 range.I have heard that it is supposed to warm up next week,but that can change before it is known.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still continuing my therapy and continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I have nothing to fear as they are leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell early this morning by masturbating.I really felt miserable after this fall and really felt like there was a weight crushing me down.After the fall,I immediately asked God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better as I really believed that I was forgiven.I still get tempted throughout the day everyday as temptations come at me left and right and today was no exception.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual behavior,but I did keep up in prayer as I was tempted.I kept asking god in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist all of the temptations that came at me and I did feel better after praying for that.I am also still going to continue to ask for prayers by everyone out there who follows and reads my blog and what I post on here.I am also again asking for encouraging words by all of you in the comments sections as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans,with the exception of church on Sunday.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ