Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things planned for today.I first went to the local Big Lots to pick up a couple of things and after paying for those,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I have nothing to fear nor anything to worry about in regards to this particular struggle with mental illness and how terrible it can be from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate hot me twice at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours when two throbbing erections woke me up out of a deep sleep at both those intervals.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist these two urges.I tossed and I turned on both these occurrences and they died down.I went back to sleep at both these times when they did soften.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted to indulge in lustful fantasies and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or near the posit of orgasm and stopping.The sexual images really tried to envelope me,but I knew that I had to fight and resist these urges.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible urges that came about and I really prayed as hard as I could as I didn't want to give Satan, the devil what he wanted and I did feel better after praying for that.I kept it up all day whenever these terrible temptations came around.Though I escaped all of that by prayer,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to continue in prayer for me and to also leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue in prayers for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my Thursday Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ