Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things to do today.I was still battling symptoms of the common cold.I first went to a friends house to pick something up and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to see if they had a particular type of herbal tea that I was looking for,which they didn't.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to see if they had it,which they did,but I could only use it during the evening time.I also picked up a bag of cough drops.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to buy a pack of herbal tea to drink during the day.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light snack and I did some more personal PC work.I also made a cup of tea to drink for my cold symptoms.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player while relaxing for the rest of the day.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am starting to feel a little bit better in regards to the depressions that I felt last week,but I am still dealing with BPD and it's symptoms.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and at times,it gets worse instead of better as my moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me endure in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in keeping me sustained and much more calmer.It makes me feel a little bit better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are there to help me through.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was awakened by an erection and I was tempted to masturbate when it woke me up out of a deep sleep,but it didn't last very long.I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for the bathroom.As I headed for there,the erection started to die down and my genitals were fully soft once I was finished.I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply stayed busy by being out in the community and just doing what I had to do.This kept my mind off of sexual stuff and that did make me feel pretty good emotionally.I stayed busy and managed to keep my mind focused on what I was doing.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to continue to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ