Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I still had a scratchy sore throat today.Though it wasn't as bad as was yesterday,it was still sore.I continued using throat drops and spraying my throat with throat spray.I didn't let my sore throat stop me from getting important things done.I still ran my errands and was glad to get them done.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work before sitting down to my evening meal,which was light as I really wasn't in the mood to cook something.I also did one more thing before turning in for the night.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am still feeling depressed as a result of the one year anniversary of my mother's death.Tomorrow,it will be the one year anniversary of her funeral,and I am still feeling the feelings of depression that I felt on Saturday.I am hoping to get through the week and still hope that my depression eases.I am also still dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle and current depression even more difficult to handle.I won't be seeing my therapist for quite a while,but I will continue to take my medication as directed.I will also still continue to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle tried to drain me of my emotional energy.I have been praying to my Heavenly Father daily and asking him for help in getting me through this depression and also,to help me deal with the symptoms of BPD and Schizophrenia that I struggle with daily.I ask for strength to help me endure and they give it to me.I feel more sustained and more at ease.I feel a tad better knowing that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still not ready to share them here for now.So far,since I have been keeping myself busy and trying to have this depression eased,I really haven't been thinking too much about anything lustful and fantasy like.I am just going to go through the days and work to have this current depression eased.I am again asking that all of you pray for me as I am still going through this difficult emotional time.I also ask for some positive verbal encouragement.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Please keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging comment or two as I truly and desperately need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have to meet with my new job placement counselor and if my sore throat isn't any better by tomorrow,I am going to head to the emergency ward at the local hospital.I have nothing else planned for tomorrow,but I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ