Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I watched a little TV.I woke up with congestion and a headache as a result of that congestion.I also felt dizzy.I am still battling cold symptoms.I watched a little TV and I also had my usual quick breakfast.I also had my usual two cups of coffee.After I was done watching TV,I brewed some Echinacea tea and I drank it.I also brewed another cup and I took two Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules alongside a pain reliever powder and I went back to bed to lay down for a while.I needed to get rid of the headache and the dizziness that went with it.
After laying down for a little over an hour and a half,I showered quickly and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to get dressed and go out for some fresh air and run a few errands.
I first went to the Dollar Tree store to pick up a bottle of aspirin and a can of chicken noodle soup.After that,I headed back home.
When I got home,I heated up the can of soup and I ate it for lunch.I also registered the three dollar bills that I got in change and after that,I headed back out again.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a bottle of Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.After that,I decided to do a little bit of shopping at the local Salvation Army thrift store.When that was done,I headed straight home,
When I got home,I relaxed and brewed another cup of Echinacea tea and took a few Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.After that,I brewed another cup of tea and did more personal PC work.
After having a light evening meal,I watched a little bit more TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keep me much calmer.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation again today by masturbating and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing with other men involved as well.When I sinned again,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I left nothing out as I prayed.I told my Heavenly Father everything and I left nothing out.I did feel better after I was finished praying and I also truly knew and believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I simply went through the rest of the day and nothing else happened as I was out in the community for much of the day.I am asking all of my fellow blog followers to please keep praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you fellow blog followers not to be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Your prayers and positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ